December 27, 2009
Holy crap. I just gotta say that I need to write something down. Part of me is sometimes fearful to write, as not only is it personal, but I have friends that have found out about this site and what I write in “My Two Cents” posts are not something I always share with them. The other fear is that when you wear your heart on your sleeve and wear it for all the internet to see, it can be a little overwhelming.
The other thing is, I’m not versed in any new knowledge. I have read many things and learned many lessons, but I don’t OOB on a whim nor can I channel. As a matter of fact, I am in AWE of what you people write me. It’s a gift hearing experiences from you guys.
Well for me, the best way to conquer fear is to prove it doesn’t exist – live in love – and for me that is posting my thoughts, feelings, and concerns for everyone to read and comment. You’re my family so you’re stuck with me writing on my site.
Did anyone else think this would be easy?
I “woke up” really only in 2006 and even since then, it’s only been since mid-2007 that I have concentrated my thoughts (and even beliefs) in channeling and the stories that are ringing true about our Earth’s history – our history. 2008 was a year of filing against the system – through the US Treasury, Birth Certificate, Promissory Notes, Bonds, OID, etc… 2009 was the year of finding out what we really are – and how we are here by choice, for a reason, and to learn the last vestiges of whatever it is each of us need to learn.
I heard people mention that “it’s hard to be a starseed” and “when this cycle ends in 2012, we’ll have stripped all of our ego and fears, etc…”
This is a piece of cake
I thought them all to be crazy. In 2006/07 I had a good 3D life – good job, fancy car, awesome girlfriend. We travelled and bought… stuff (including a townhouse and trips to Vegas). Life was grand.
Me in 2006=Materialism at its finest.
Open to “Happy New Year 2009″ and things started to fade. Um, excuse me – get stripped out of my life. Problems started to arise with my girlfriend. Money started to disappear. The fancy car left. Everything was becoming more and more bare as I researched more and more about the changing energies and I realized I was being led down a path on my own volition – a path that was getting me ready for ascension.
Relationships – My God they pull the heartstrings
Has anyone else had issues with their relationships recently? In the past couple months, I have AT LEAST 10 couples that I know of that have either broken up after long term relationships (me) or even marriage and others that have just gotten together to start a new life together.
In my case, my ex and I were together for a reason and “time was up” for our lessons, but my attitudes and dealing with the changing energies was hard on both of us. I still love her, of course, as we need to love ALL of our past and present relationships as they made us the people we are today.
I will repeat that – we need to love ALL of our past and present relationships as they made us the people we are today. That soul across from you offered his/herself up to you to help YOU learn a lesson. Some lessons are MUCH harder than others but in this game it’s all about learning. And those souls helped YOU become a better person. You have to thank them tremendously for that. I have told 3 or 4 people that advice and they have either found peace in their relationship or were able to forgive past ones and move on.
Excuse me, I’d like the insides of my chest back
Earlier this year, my ethereal heart opened up. At first I just thought it was something I ate. Then it was a little persistent. Ok, ok… it must be the coffee. Those Americanos can pack a punch.
The feeling in the center of my chest became more regular. It was getting more and more regular as I started WTL in February, then following channels, and once I started to hear Mark, Tara, Rama, and Beth’s experiences, it opened it up even more.
Now I have that pulse in the middle of my chest almost all the time. Spikes happen occasionally and I know something major has happened. I’m used to it now and it’s really quite a joyous feeling.
12/12, 12/21… Man, they’re only numbers, right?
But 12/12. Alas, 12/12. I watched that day come and the Galactics talking about energies knocking your socks off and never being this much love EVER beamed to Earth, I figured I could be in for a biggie. Maybe. Then 12/21 hit and I figured it would be even bigger. Maybe.
I was right.
For me, there seems to be a 7-10 day window where the big day goes by and then by the end of about 10 days, I’m reeling in issues. I’m up and down like an elevator – moody as a rhino with a thorn between his toes.
It is safe for me to say that since December 12th, the feelings that I have been trying to clear have been the HARDEST thing for me to EVER get through.
Does anyone else have these feelings? Does it hurt for you too?
Behind Door #1 is… nothing! Door #2….. nothing! And finally Door #3…. nothing!
I agreed to this? I laugh to myself. I have ridden my Indigo Warrior Starseed status to the hilt. I fought the system and all the while explained it to friends and family (who gloriously lived vicariously through me).
As you step out of the 3D world, the 3D world closes hard and fast behind you. You “take” something of theirs, they “take” something of yours. I “took” a vehicle, they “took” my credit rating. Hmmm… fair trade? For the lessons, sure. For the 3D kick-ass lifestyle that I mentioned above that now just slipped even faster through my fingers? Nope.
But that’s the thing. Progression out of that 3D binding was necessary – and most likely pre-programmed to boot!
So the stripping continued. Slowly but surely, 3D took all that it needed as I walked through the proverbial doorway into 5D thinking.
Now I’m just about through that door. And it HURTS losing a lifestyle and everything you’ve ever known. This is good, I understand, but I’m not finding this as easy as I had thought.
So now I sit waiting for everything to come down. Waiting. I’d say waiting patiently, but then I’d be lying. Owning nothing, being single, inbetween jobs, and co-signing to have a car to drive. All the issues in the 3D world that would classify this thirty-something as instable and “He’s not so good on paper, dear”.
Why do I write this?
I needed to get this off my chest. Once I hit that little “publish” button on the right hand side there, I will have mentally and spiritually pushed myself into 5D.
And you’re all here to witness it and hold me to it.
Physically, we’re still in 3D. But most of us only have one foot left in it. Some may only have a toe in it – like me. Once disclosure hits, we’ll be COMPLETELY free of all these binds that are causing chaos on us now.
Did that little birdie just put all his eggs in one basket?
Wow. How many of us have asked THAT question? How many people have thought this:
“Here’s a good one – hahahaha – I’m shitty on paper in 3D but once we get disclosure and announcements, I’m gonna be at the head of the class! Now where’s that disclosure?”
I have my hand up. Oh, and I see a couple of you have raised your hand as well. Glad I’m not alone.
So what. I followed my guidance and did the unspeakable in 3D terms. I sit here on a Sunday night confessing my thoughts to the world – and feeling better for it.
I want to hold my head high. I want to be proud of where I am. I want to make a difference in the New Earth. I want to physically hug our celestial brethren.
I want to be in joy.
And I want all of you to join me. Because this family, including you right here right now reading this, are going to make a difference in the very near future.
…………….. I pause. That publish button is a looming little button.
I’m diving head-first into the water and pushing it now.
Aaaaaaaahhhhh – the water’s beautiful.
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